Mindfulness. Right here, right now.

Grief can be all consuming and has the tendency to steal the moments right in front of me. I am actively working to be present, take things 5 minutes at a time, and take in every moment. I’ve learned that in the midst of so much pain, simultaneously there is beauty and I don’t want to miss that. 
On our flight to Denver little Maddie asked me to get her headphones that were buried in the bottom, VEEERRRY bottom of my bag. So I told myself that one day I’ll miss her asking for my help, it’s a privilege. I dug out the headphones and then she asked me to help her put them in. So I took note of her little blue eyes, her tiny little ears, the softness of her light brown hair.
I reminded myself that she won’t always ask for my help and to take this in.
Life is precious, the love between any one of us is ever present and I don’t want to let grief rob me of that. 
Thank you sweet Maddie for asking me to be your Mom in that moment and for letting me see your baby blues.
She took me out of my pain for a few moments and reminded me that as much as we lost, I still have so much to be grateful for. 
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